You look so much like Hayley Williams.
You’re my favourite person right now. Thank you.
Don’t you dare fucking touch me whilst your fingerprints are still on her.
Don’t you dare act like you ever knew me,
Because if you knew me, you’d know
That leaving me with no goodbye for someone else
Would kill me in a catastrophic way that left me months later
Still writing about you
Got a haircut, took selfies.
M.O.W, I ALWAYS KNEW WE WERE NEVER GOING TO FUCKING BE TOGETHER BUT I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT WHO YOU WOULD BE WITH AND NOW YOU’RE HOLDING SOMEONES HAND AND IT ISN’T MINE AND THERE ARE BUTTERFLIES IN YOUR STOMACH BUT IT’S NOT BECAUSE OF ME AND GOD I KNEW YOU WOULD NEVER LOVE ME BUT I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT WHO YOU WOULD LOVE
I am trying to see things in perspective. My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter chocolate chip bagel. I know she cannot have this, because chocolate makes dogs very sick. My dog does not understand this. She pouts and wraps herself around my leg like a scarf and purrs and tries to convince me to give her just a tiny bit. When I do not give in, she eventually gives up and lays in the corner, under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dog’s. When I want something with my whole being, and the universe withholds it from me, I hope the universe thinks to herself: "Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, but she does not understand how it will hurt.
I was always holding onto people, and they were always leaving.